Well, I did it. I got through Grandma's memorial. Not sure what I said, not sure I ever will know what I said, as I can't imagine EVER watching video, but I guess it doesn't matter.

I had a few friends who came, and y'all- Holly, Ginger, Josh, Kalyn... you will never EVER know how much it meant to me. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.

Aaaaaand now I have a house to clean, gifts to buy, gifts to wrap, food to prepare, bills to pay, emails to return, blahblahblahblahblahblahblah.

Merry Christmas!

Grandma

I miss my Grandma so much it hurts.

It literally hurts.

I haven't felt this way in a long time. Weird to say, but the last time I remember feeling this way was when I felt "heartbroken". Years ago, before I was married, when I felt the literal ache of the loss of a loved one. A silly boy at the time, but I felt the pain none the less.

My heart aches. I miss her. I miss her so much. I am sad to have lost such a positive, sweet, precious role model in my life.

I've felt this way for two days now, and this is only part of the cycle. I always feel hope and joy after the heartache. I remember how lucky I was to have known her, and remember all of the wonderful times we shared. I am hopeful that I will be able to carry on her legacy. Hopeful that I will be able to make an impact on my own children and grandchildren the way that she did. Hopeful that I will live a life as full and as rich as hers.

She is a part of me, forever and always. I love her. I miss her.

sweet grandma

This is a video I will cherish always. Grandma is almost completely unresponsive anymore. She's on morphine every two hours and off of all of her other meds. Hospice is taking wonderful care of her.

This moment will always and forever be etched in my heart. I love her so.

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Yo Gabba Gabba

My kids love Yo Gabba Gabba. I love Yo Gabba Gabba. We listen to the music in the car and I actually like it. I knew Yo Gabba Gabba was coming, but already had tickets to the Nutcracker and Mike and I decided it was too expensive/too much in one day to buy tickets. I was so bummed. Until Mike saw the Groupon Deal. 65% off tickets. Um, YES.

So after the first act of the Nutcracker we picked up Daddy and Aiden and all went to Yo Gabba Gabba. Poor Aiden was NOT feeling well, he'd had diarrhea and fever for 2 days. Naturally, being the amazing parents that we are, we gave him some motrin and brought him along. [I feel terrible about it if you can't tell :-( ] It just would have been too sad to have him miss it. He loves Yo Gabba Gabba almost as much as he loves me. :-)

Yo Gabba Gabba was such a great show and just so much fun. Addison and I danced almost the whole time! Aiden stayed in Daddy's lap most of the time, and even though you could tell he wasn't feeling great, the motrin definitely helped things and he had a fun time.

"Listening to music and dancing is AWESOME!" -DJ Lance Rock

imma get my christmas wrap on

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The Nutcracker

I took Addison to see Ballet Austin's The Nutcracker on Sunday. I can't describe how much fun we had.

We started with lunch at the Shady Grove. Here's a classy photo we took in the restroom.


The first thing we did when we got to the theater was look for a keepsake. Addison saw a Clara Nutcracker and never saw anything else.


One of my old students now dances with Ballet Austin and got us discounted tickets, 10th row, right on center. The seats were AWESOME.


Once the show started, Addison was in HEAVEN. She gasped when the Snow Queen came onstage. She watched the young dancers intently, taking in their every move. She loved the snow. She loved the music. She loved the costumes. It was all so magical.

They have the Trail of Lights display out around the venue and Addison wanted to take a photo with all of the different pieces. :)






To top it all off, Addison said to me as we were leaving, "Momma, today was the most SPECIAL day EVER." I couldn't agree more!!

silly boy

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Sleepover

After our Thanksgiving dinner, Addison and I stayed at mom's for a sleepover with Melissa and all of her kids. All of us in mom's bedroom. 5 kids and 3 adults. It was actually really fun!

The boys fell asleep almost immediately, and the girls watched West Side Story. Addison LOVED it. We eventually had to turn it off so that she'd finally fall asleep. :)

Is she not the prettiest little girl EVER???